Panic!

Monday, July 17, 2006

well. officially, i'm screwed. totally screwed. firstly, i have this bloody math test on wednesday which i haven't studied for. with crazy subjects, namely coordinate geometry, standard graphs, and remainder and factor theorum; coordinate geo and RF theorum being the killer. especailly coordinate geo. secondly, my history teacher went crazy and gave us this super thick piece of notes to be read by tomorrow. thirdly, i just have so much work i think i'm gonna burst anytime and insult a random teacher.

seriously. life is stressful. extremely. to the extent that i feel so bored during lessons. sometimes, i just don't know what the teacher is saying. so much so that i could just yell out and demand the teacher to let me off and give me a life. at least i feel like doing so.

we had this great discussion with our lit teacher today on the Singaporean dream. the 5Cs. how it has become less and less of a Singaporean dream, and evolving into a Singaporean PLAN. something our parents working towards, have now become a standard set for us to achieve instead of us choosing what we want in our life. so would it necessarily be better to stick to the rigid society, a secure job, get married, retire at 55 or so and live the rest of your life watching korean dramas? or would it be better to break free from the dogmatic society we live in to be free? to experience life the way we want it to be? to live life with passion instead of living the seemingly monotonous lifestyle that every typical Singaporean lives every day?

that was our discussion today. pretty animated one too. interesting. so we discussed about our studies in the same context.

lets take the 1st one, the more "secure" view. this would be the one where parents force us to study, teachers force us to study. blah blee boh bee. monotonous and boring if you ask me. undesirable life. but what would this lead you to? probably a degree. at least a diploma. for some, a PhD (both a doctrite and a permenant head damage if you ask me), a stable job with stable income, probably a yearly bonus and extra off days, a decent family life, and good retirement benefits.

but the 2nd one. its the one where we challenge our parents' and our teachers' perspective of our studies. where maybe you study something you have passion in. quit school to pursue music? perhaps the arts? or sports? you would probably live a fuller life, in a sense that at least you don't waste your 80 odd years on this Earth.

now our discussion came to this conclusion. which is better? neither. does it mean we just sit on the fence. no. hell. it'll hurt your... nevermind. jk. a combination of both would be good. take my school for example, giving us the opportunity to pursue the arts, for example. or the sports school?

so is the Singaporean dream now a Singaporean Plan? would breaking away from the dogmatic society, or the percieved dogmatic society, be better or worse? beats me XD

and that was just the first part of my post. w00ts. somehow, my posts keep getting longer and longer.

luck. is it present? why do we keep on saying: "good luck with blah", or "wish you good luck". or worse. we keep on saying that we are so damn sway.

obviously, i had my inspiration to blog on this. everything that i blog on has its source of inspiration

so this certain good friend of mine. thinking that he is so damn sway. his problem is, well, besides the point. but i was, after all, thinking about the "sway". kinda jolts me back, and making myself think. hmmm... how many times have i said: "good luck" and the likes, instead of saying "God bless"?

well. so i might as well give my friend there some advice.

God is in control of your life, in control of practically everything in the universe. something that crops up. it isn't luck that caused it to happen. luck, or the lack of it, didn't cause you to be so "sway" as you deem it. look. He is in control. His will. if He decides something to be done, it is done. look at it this way. would God ever do something to hurt you, to make your life a misery? even so, it may be with your best interests in heart. every thing He does is with our best interests in heart. so screw luck. its non-existent. trust in Him, pray. everything will be fine.

so thats the second part of my long post.

don't know if you have seen this before. oh wells.

DISCLAIMER: i know there may be some racist stuff or something. someone sent it to me. i didn't come up with it. so don't arrest me. lol

A Polish man married a Canadian girl after he had been in Canada a year or so and, although his English was far from perfect, they got on very well. Until one day he rushed into a lawyer's office and asked him if he could arrange a divorce for him - "very quick".

The lawyer said that the speed of getting a divorce would depend on the circumstances and asked him the following questions:

LAWYER: "Have you any grounds?"

POLISH: "JA, JA, an acre and half and a nice little home with 3 bedrooms."

LAWYER "No, I mean what is the foundation of this case?"

POLISH: "It is made of concrete, brick and mortar," he responded.

LAWYER: "Does either of you have a real grudge?"

POLISH: "No," he replied, "We have a two-car carport and have never really needed one."

LAWYER "I mean, what are your relations like?"

POLISH: "All my relations are in Poland."

LAWYER: "Is there any infidelity in your marriage?"

POLISH: "Yes, we have hi fidelity stereo set & DVD player with 6.1 sound. We don't necessarily like the music, but the answer to your questions is yes."

LAWYER: "No, I mean does your wife beat you up?"

POLISH: "No, I'm always up before her."

LAWYER: "Is your wife a nagger?

POLISH: "No, she white."

LAWYER: "Why do you want this divorce?"

POLISH: "She going to kill me."

LAWYER: "What makes you think that?"

POLISH: "I got proof."

LAWYER: "What kind of proof?"
POLISH: "She going to poison me. She buy a bottle at the drug store and put on shelf in bathroom. I can read - it says, "Polish Remover".

so what am i doing typing out such a long post? i don't know. actually i have more to say. i just kinda forgot about it. you know. temperory memory loss or something? beats me.

oh yeas.. i know. a song. that we are doing soon =]

Take It All

Verse 1
Searching the world
The lost will be found
In freedom we live
As one we cry out
You carried the cross
You died and rose again
My God
I'll only ever give my all

Verse 2
You sent Your Son
From heaven to earth
You delivered us all
It's eternally heard
I searched for truth
And all I found was You
My God
I'll only ever give my all

Chorus
Jesus we're living Your Name
We'll never be ashamed of You
Our praise and all we are today
Take take take it all
Take take take it all

Bridge
Running to the One
Who heals the blind
Following the shining light
In Your hands
The power to save the world
My life

now this is probably the longest post of my life, so far... and maybe it would be the longest post of my life. wells. thanks for bearing with me during this ubber long rant. thats if anyone even bothers to reach the end of the post. cus some might die from the long posty thingy.. whatever. =]

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