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Wednesday, July 19, 2006

paranoia

the stress is there. it is present. present to the extent its eating me up. from the inside. somehow, the day seems to be tiring. drowziness is a common phenomenon now. i wake up, and unknowingly, fall asleep again. lessons. a chore. what is learning for? so what if i score an A1, so what if i get into a good JC, a good university, get a good job. am i happy with my life. is it worth it, to be so bloody stressed up just to get a good job? get the 5Cs?

paranoia

paranoia. the stress. its making me bloody paranoid. paranoid about every damn thing around me. my friends, my parents, everything. i'm paranoid that i'm being hated by every single damn human on the face of the earth. i'm paranoid that every teacher is bias against me. i'm paranoid about world war 3. whatever. i'm hating this feeling. i'm hating being paranoid about every damn bloody thing. i hate putting on a bloody show. smiling, blah blah blah. sometimes. i just wanna scream.

school. does it do any good. so what if you get a good job? you're risking your sanity for, what?, a few thousand bucks a month when you're 25? come on.

why does our society have to be so materialistic, so dogmatic. 5Cs, good education, a degree. look at woodbridge. no, no. buangkok green, as they call it. i'm betting that 60% of the people in there went insane because of education and because of what the school has done to them. the stress. everything.

get this bloody load off my back. that's what i wanna do. but can i do it?

f*** the stress. f*** the school. i'm gonna break apart. anytime. maybe now.

i want my life. now

{8:04 PM}

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