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Saturday, August 12, 2006

life's just so screwed up

no. its not the grades. its not relationships. its not school. its me.

i'm just so tired. mentally tired. physically tired.

ever had that feeling? the feeling where your arms can't move. maybe not "can't move". more like, hard to lift it up? can't walk straight. can't stand properly, always like you're gonna fall over.

now i'm trying to find out what's happening, what's the problem.

and i'm just trying not to let this take over, take me down. look. i'm not sad. no, i'm not depressed. i'm just tired. not sad. tired.

had a great day. dad's birthday. so we had a great dinner and cake, had a great time just enjoying each other's company. i'm happy. i'm not decieving anyone. for what? decieve for what? i'm happy. really. just need lots of sleep. that's all. need to recover the use of my limbs. haha. from that injury from that stupid dare i took on, and from the rigourous training that pretty much drained every ounce of energy i have in this body. probably strained a few muscles, which could explain the "unexplained strain in my limbs" problem.

well. was seriously thinking of flaming some people in school, and flaming my tiredness with some, well, words. thought thru it, decided against it. maybe because of chatting with Jlse. found that, well, my posts are rather, well, vulgar. i need to change it. change myself. need God to change me.

Lord, change me. Forgive me Lord. And help me through this time. Deliver me, for i know You are my Rock. Deliver me through this time of trials Lord.

Amen

{8:54 PM}

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